Dwell on Joy.

Lately, when I am out running errands and I bump into someone I haven't seen in a while, or when I get that sweet, sweet phone call from an old friend, the first question I am always asked, in a concerned, very meaningful tone, is, "How are you doing?"

And to answer it in a way that I hope you all can relate to, simply put, we're doing.

We're doing great. We're doing sad. We're doing dancing, and maybe a little crying. We're doing a lot of joy, and we're doing a little bit of discouraged. We're doing baby kicks, and a normal pregnancy - that happens to be not-so-normal. 

I say it in this way to help you catch a glimpse of how our life, our sweet little family, is still the same. Yes, we occasionally feel broken, but in the next breath we feel so rejuvenated by the fresh air of spring that our worries are washed away. We're just like you. We all have fears. Heartache. Seasons we wish we didn't have to visit, but without these adventures, we would not develop into the people we are meant to be. 

And I believe that. Every word. 

Our focus is not to dwell on the fear of finances or shunts. Not to worry about Little Brother's ability to walk or run or play sports. 

Instead, when we dwell, we dwell on joy and happiness and love. We dwell on being the family that doesn't give up. So, when you see us, I hope you see these things. I hope you see the strength of our God holding us ever so tightly, because we could not dwell on these things on our own.  

Some days are harder than others, mainly due to uncertainty, but we know Little Brother is blessing our lives in ways that we cannot begin to understand. As he becomes our new normal, our eyes are opening to a whole new, beautiful world around us that we have previously so easily overlooked. 

It's a blessing, this journey we're on - one that we wouldn't have chosen on our own, leaving us thankful that we are not in control.