Letter to Little {Brother}

Dear Little Brother,

I must start by saying how sorry I am that it has taken so long to write you your first letter. Our hearts are nothing but filled with excitement and love as we prepare for your new place in this world.

So far, our journey with you has been a little difficult - the exact opposite of the journey we took with your sister not so long ago.  But through the difficulty, we wouldn't change a thing.

We are learning more about life, and love, and the Grace of God, as each day reveals itself as another opportunity to bring Him glory.

When we first learned that there was going to be a You, we were indescribably excited. We made plans - our plans - and they all seemed to be working out perfectly. Until, everything changed about 12 weeks later. Our hearts were broken in a way we never thought they would be, as we prepared our aching souls for the fatal second opinion.

We cried. We loved. We prayed, and asked for prayer. At one point it felt as though the entire Southeast was falling on their knees, lifting our little family up in their prayers. In the midst of tragic undertones, we had hope, we felt love, and we knew we were not alone. In those dark moments, we - maybe for the first time - truly let go of our situation, because we knew we couldn't do it on our own, and let God be the Almighty source we so desperately needed.

When we let go of the plans our hearts had been making for quite some time, we began to feel God moving in a way like never before. That second opinion turned out to be not-so-fatal, after all. We unexpectedly left the ultrasound with happy tears rolling down our cheeks, holding hands, as giant smiles filled our faces. We were having a perfect little boy, who just happens to have spina bifida. We were having you!

You, sweet son, are the reason for all of this. You are the reason for our all-of-a-sudden change in perspective, our change in attitude, and the reason our faith the size of a mustard seed is able to move these mountains.

We're seeing God move through your oh, so tiny, developing body. We're hearing him whisper peace to our hearts, as he reminds us that you are perfect just the way he is making you.

Now we are so anxiously left with the joy and excitement, and sometimes fear, of what our sweet future holds, as you help make our family so much more complete.

Always remember, every part of you is prayed for.
Always know that you are loved - for the exact person you are.
And please never forget that you are wanted, oh so desperately wanted.

We can't wait to meet you, sweet boy.

Love upon love,

Mom